Hi,
I haven't been really active in writing blogs for a long time now, mainly due to the huge workload! Though that has been good on the financial front and created some much needed mental stimulation, it greatly impacted my ability to relax. There was a constant itch to check mails "Has the client reverted!!", my heart beat increased each time I read "INBOX (1)" and I bestowed more attention to my laptop than my son. He started treating the laptop as an unwanted sibling, constantly bickering, accusing and questioning my love.
I was also unhappy with myself, I desperately wanted to read books, watch serials (yes, I am one of those women!!), indulge in meaningless yet greatly gratifying shopping.....basically I wanted to work, but also enjoy the joys of being a housewife :) Ummmm, I am not really into pampering myself at beauty parlours, beyond the essentials.
I wondered whether I was that much of a workaholic when I was working full time. But then, I didn't have 'a school going 4 year old' and all the time consuming things that term stands for. Homework, swimming classes, birthday parties, shopping (for his essentials) and socializing with his friends' mothers (to ensure HE has a good social life). Though my son is an angel, he allows me to watch TV, read books (I can manage half a page without interruption), the need to just let myself be, was immense.
One weekend, with a minuscule workload, I forced myself to finish Paths of Glory, watch brainless movies and be with the family. My fingers were itching to open the laptop, check my e mails (I did, but on my husband's phone), but then remembered my son's accusations "You never ever play with me, you are always working on laptop, one day I am going to throw your laptop into the swimming pool"! And, I liked that unproductive time spent, one of my best weekends with my family, after a long time.
With work being low and a vacation coming up, I am now back to blogging :)
Keep watching this space......
